It seems my days are full of strife,
I try to justify what has happened in my life
I dress my wounds and prepare myself for another day of the same
I sigh at my scars and wonder how I am still sane
Some scars have faded and by others I should be dead
I relive each one as I lay down my head
I want to forget it all and find peace
Sometimes I do not think my pain will ever cease

I just want to let go
but chaos is all I know
You seem to see it all though
through whatever façade I show you
I show your eyes a smile
but my eyes watch my back all the while

I tell you not to worry, but you still do
you cry for me because I refuse to
I am honored that someone like you
sheds tears for me like you do
From the time we met until this moment
you have seen me act immune to my torment.

I tell you now, there were times I thought my resolve would break
Amazingly my pain was always a little less than I could take
I wish I could say it was you who kept me from breaking,
but that would be a false statement I would be making

Hatred, vengeance, and retribution is what drives me
The sick, twisted, horrid, part of me I do not want you to see
I have cursed the gods countless times for what they created in me
This sweet madness, this glorious sadness that knocks me to a knee

Many a night I wanted to leave my cold and lonely bed
Wanting to find a warmer spot next to your head
Beside you I could find one night’s peace
In your arms I could find a new life’s lease
It would make every ounce of pain worthwhile
For once in my life my heart could smile